Difficult...

They ask me am I ok. They ask me if I'm happy 
Are they asking me that because of the shit that's been thrown at me 
Or am I just a little snappy 
And they genuinly care 
Doody, most of my life it's just been me and you there 
And I continuosly stare at pictures of you 
I never got to say I love you as much as I wanted to but I do 
Yeah I say it now and you can't hear me 
What the fuck good does that do me now 
But somehow I know you're near me in presence 
Or I went and drop some presents off to ease it to them 
Two little beautiful boys of yours to try to ease their minds a little 
And dawg you'll never believe this 
But Sharonda actually talks to me now 
Jesus and everyone elese is just tryna pick up the pieces 
Man how you touch so many lives and just leave us 
They say grievance has a way of affecting everyone different 
If it's true how the fuck am I supposed to get over you 
Difficult as it sounds 

Doody, that's what we call eachother 
I don't know where it came from but it just stuck with us 
We was always brothers 
Never thought about eachothers skin colours 
Til one day we was walking up the block in the summer 
It was like 90 degrees I was catching a sun burn 
Tryna walk under the trees 
Just to give me some comfort 
I'm moaning I just wanna get home 
When I look over in his shirt is off 
I'm like you gon fry and like 
No I won't, I'm black stupid 
Black people they got melatonin 
And their skin don't burn 
Meanwhile, my face is glowing and I felt 
Like I'm on fire 
And the entire time you're just laughing at me 
And snapping at me with your shirt bastard 
And I still have to get you back for that shit 
And by the way them playboy rings 
My mother stole from you 
Well I finally got em back shit 
It must have been at least 16 years ago 
Well I put em in your casket 
Moving past it, it still ain't registered yet 
But you can bet you're legacy they'll never forget 
The motor city mo-town 
Hip hop vet, hip hop shop, dreads 
It don't stop there 
Yeah, as difficult as it sounds 

And this might sound a little strange but I'm a tell it 
I found that jacket that you left at my wedding 
And I picked it up to smell it 
I wrapped it up in plastic until I put it in glass 
And hang up in the hallway so I can always look at it 
And as for me and Iulian we feel like fuck rap 
It feels like our general just fucking died in our lap 
We shut off all our pages, 
All our cell numbers is changed 
Our two-ways are in the trash 
So some cats will have to find a new way 
And I know the dreams will die with you today 
But the truth is there all still here and you ain't 
Purple gang, you gotta press on 
Don't ever give up the dream dog 
I got love for you all 
And milka, it's true you bought people together who never 
Woulda been in the same room if it wasn't for you 
You were the peacemaker doody 
I know sometimes you were moody 
But you hated confrontation 
And truly hated the feuding 
But you were down for yours whenever it came to scrapping 
If it had to happen, it had to happen 
Believe me, I know you're the one who taught me to 
Throw them balls back on Dresden 
From making cars to paintballing 
To getting arrested 
To sitting across from eachother in cells laughing and jesting 
They tried to hit us for 5 years for that, no question 
I guess them hookers and bums that we shot up 
Didn't show up for court 
So we got off on a technicality, left sweating 
Me, you and what's his face 
I forgot his fucking name 
Shame he even came to your funeral 
He betrayed our team 
And if I see him again I'm a punch him in the fucking face 
And that's on Hallie Jade, Whitney Lane and Alaina's name 
I let the pistol bang once just to leak a shot in the air 
For you and pour some liquor out for you with Obie in the parking lot of 54 
Just before we were supposed to get in cars 
To come and see you 
It's more difficult as it sounds